Monday, February 3, 2014

The Hardest Month

I always have a hard time emotionally in January.

It's partially the relief of the holiday season come to an end but it is also the month that I gave birth to and then less than a week later placed a baby for adoption.

So, January is the hardest month because of the child's birthday.  I try not to have regrets and woulda shoulda couldas, but I miss her.  Every day.  My heart is not a whole one because my arms do not have her to hug.

Time heals all wounds.  But there are always scars.  And this one is a particularly deep one.  It sometimes opens and festers for a while.

But.  I know she is loved by her parents and wants for nothing.  It doesn't make it much easier, but it helps a little.

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